Reflections

Today was the estimated due date for my second pregnancy last year.

This time isn't as hard as last October. I think it's because I never really got a chance to bond with the baby. We never even got to see the bean on an ultrasound since I miscarried before that was even possible (5 weeks, 5 days). With my other pregnancy, we got to see the baby multiple times, and even once after it had passed.

I never imagined that Mara would still be an only child right now, but I guess that was God's plan for now. I pray that we will have another baby this time next year. We'll just have to wait and see if that is what God wants.